Hello and Goodbye.

I'm here to announce that this blog is officially closed/unused from now on as I have moved to another new blog. 2011 is ending in a blink of an eye, and I've graduated from high school. So I thought I'd be good to have a new start this coming new year of 2012. Well, let's just hope the world doesn't end next year. I'm still too young to die. Lol. xD But, it's true. :P Please re-link me here if you want too. :) I'm not gonna delete this blog cause I wanna keep it like a diary. :)) Yeah, I'm sentimental. xD K. Annyeong. ^^

:')

• Let’s grow old together, beginning with today. 
• Let’s work slowly with each other and build a relationship that we can both enjoy being a part of. 
• Let’s share love and understand that neither of us is perfect; we are both subject to human frailties. 
• Let’s hold each other close and whisper though the night—pledging our love, honoring our commitment. 
• Let’s encourage each other to pursue our dreams, even when we’re weary from trying. 
• Let’s expect the best that we both have to give and still love when we fall short of our expectations. 
• Let’s be friends and respect each other’s individual personality and give one another room to grow. 
• Let’s be candid with each other and point out strengths and weaknesses. 
• Let’s understand each other’s personal philosophy, even if we don’t agree. 
• Let’s lie awake long into the night sharing our innermost secrets. 
• Let’s be friends as well as lovers. 
• Let’s laugh at time and plan with each other and wonder how we ever got along without this love we’ve found. 
• Let’s never take for granted these moments that we’ve shared, but always be reminded of how intensely we have learned to live, how completely we have learned to love. 
• Let’s grow old together, and look back on life and smile. 

Holiday plan and some rants. :P

I've decided to change my blog layout and maybe my blog link during this coming holidays! Wheeee...! XD Yeah, I'm kinda bored with this one already. Haha >_______<" Hope you guys will link me back after I finished changing my blog link. Hmm. I think that's all about what I plan to do during the holidays. Will think about some more activities to do later. :P Btw, my additional maths paper is so gonna fail. Meh, I don't care cause I've been failing the whole year. Hahahaha XD Wish I can drop that subject. =______= Hmm.. For next week I have maths, civics, accounts, biology, chemistry and that damn physic papers. :( Me sad sad, cause me gonna be dead dead. Lol. Getting crazy already. XD I think I'll focus more on accounts and maths and maybe biology too. -sigh- Why do we need two damn freaking long weeks of exam?! I'm soooo frigging tired! :( Anyway, I've got not enough sleep this couple of weeks. I hate being so tired. I really wish I have the energy of an Energizer bunny. Haha XD

Kay kays. Gonna end this rant.
Oh! Btw, Happy 520!
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Blahaha. xD

It's been a while since I've blogged about my life. Well, yesterday I go out shopping with my mum, looking for dress. Hahaha XD Why am I looking for a dress? Cause I don't have one. ==" I kinda dislike wearing skirts and dresses before tbh. I  liked  loved wearing shorts and pants and jeans. It's feels safer, idk why. Maybe cause I'm weird like that. XD I was looking for dresses cause I have two weddings to attend to with my family end of this month and early of June, so yeah. I'm going to be a full 17 years old almost-adult next month and so you can't expect me to show up at someone's wedding wearing a t-shirt and jeans right? Time to grow up. Starting with the way I dress. Haha. XD Anyway, I showed my mum what kind of dresses I like and she just shrugged and then walk away to find other dress. Later, she brought me dresses that aren't to my liking. ==" But I still tried them on to make her happy. I tried on like about six or seven dresses. Then I bought two. :D I'm kinda into wearing pretty dresses now. I guess I still have the girly side in me all these years. LOL XD

Oh, btw, I'm gonna fail this semester exam. Gonna be canned in school after I'm back from the holidays cause I'm sure gonna fail Physics. The teacher's totally mad. Well, 'can't wait' for that huh? -sigh-

Idk if it's the real deal or just a crush. They say it's just a crush if those feelings last in less than four months. Well, gotta wait a couple of months before I know if it's real, the feelings that I'm feeling, the butterflies in my stomach every time you walk by and the beats my heart skipped every time I see you. Just gotta wait and see. :) After that, I'll decide what to do. 

Exam is still going on till 27th of May. My family and I are going back to Limbang that very night so that we can attend my cousin's wedding the next morning. Ughh. I was hoping to hang out and get crazy with my friends after the exam. -sigh- Hope that I won't have to stay there spending my whole holiday. Haha XD But I definitely wanna go fishing again. Tee-hee. :P

Well, that's all from me for today I guess. I spent whole evening listening to k-pop! Hahaha xD 

 

Sayonara and see you again, my bloggie! :))

朋友，我爱死你们了！♥

 

毕业前夕，就要各奔东西，
相隔那么远不知道什么时候才能再见。

你对着我说，
也许我一辈子都不会再遇到像你一样的人了。

我急忙擦眼睛怕眼泪掉下来被你笑话，
不过我现在真的和你想的一样。

 

 

如果可以，下辈子我想早点认识你们。

上帝，请允许我，即使失去了爱情，也不会失去她们。♥

 

 

It's rainy and I have the urge to write a poem unrelated to rain. =="

I'm a damsel in distress.

Oh who will save me from this miserable mess?

I hope you're already on your way.

And I hope we'll meet finally someday.

You don't have to be a knight in shinning armor.

Or a romeo who for me would die for.

You don't have to have a pot of gold.

Just promise to be there when I'm cold.

To lend a shoulder when I'm crying.

To open your heart and ears when I'm telling.

You who would share the happiness and laughters.

And wipe away the sadness and the tears.

We'll walk hand in hand, 

Side by side,

Till the day that death do us part.

 

I'll wait for you.

 

 

 

 

PS: Don't bash me if it's lame or bad etc..
It's my first try on my own.

And it may or may not be related to what I'm feeling now.

:P

Of me and my life.

It's around 190+ days to SPM but more importantly it's less than two weeks to the first semester exam. I still have done and accomplished nothing. :\ I think I'm kinda far behind all my classmates. I'm still catching up with my homework and syllabus. I've gotta work on my biology, chemistry, physics and additional maths — Form 4 and 5 syllabus. And then, school's sport carnival is coming up in July. I think the teachers would ask us to start our training starting this week (maybe). So, pretty soon I'll be dead beat, physically and emotionally. Seriously, I wish I had the energy of an Energizer bunny so I'll wont get tired doing anything. -sighs- >:(

Oh, and I dislike my lack of time management. :( Procrastinating is also what I do best — which is bad in my situation. I wish someone can knock the sense outta me and make me have the drive and motivation to give my all in my studies. Hmm.. Maybe I'll try the drugs. xD LOL Nah, just kidding and I wouldn't even dare! Hahaha xD

One other unrelated thing. Most of the teachers teaching our class dislike HATE us. D: They have been complaining about our class since like last year. But I'll have to agree though, our class is definitely annoying and noisy. Since 2008 when I'm in 2B — 'supposedly' the second best class in the whole form — the class has been receiving complaints from the teachers of being too noisy. It's the same situation the next year 2009(3B) and last year(4S2). Now, even the teacher in charge of our class is angry with us. And, our demerits have also increased day by day. But not all the students in our class are bad or even noisy — some of them are nice and quiet, like what our history teacher says. I know which category my friends and I fall into. :)

No offense though, but some of the students are really talkative and some are just plain rude. They even copied the teachers style when teaching at the front and act it out after class, mostly during recess time. It may be funny but seriously guys, at least show them some respect. After all, you wont get respect if you don't respect others first, even if you dislike or hate the teacher. I may be quiet in class, but that doesn't mean I'm afraid to voice out my opinions. Come on guys, let's change for the better for good :) — if not, at least for a few more months until we've graduated. To some who really needs 'help', stop being so stuck up and rude and ignorant and full of yourselves and also stop all the bitching and stop being a dick.

Also, stop labeling people and put yourselves into groups. Why can't all of us have a good bond with each other like other classes have? Unity is important. You know it yourself. In last year's inter-class competition like the singing competition in conjunction with national day or the relay run, our class always came in second. You know why? It's because other classes are more united than ours. Believe me, if we're united and always willing to work together and trust each other, we'll be the champion. Sadly, it's not gonna happen and we'll be minding our own thing, be selfish and be ignorant towards each other.

I admit, I wish I wasn't in this class from the start. I'm really disappointed and I wished I can repeat and relive my high school days again and choose a different path. But surely, that's impossible. Back when I'm still in primary school, I used to hope my future high school life would be fun and all that like those in the movies and dramas. Oh how naive I was! Sad to say, I really wanna leave behind and forget my high school life after I've graduated — all the hatred, all the pain and all the drama. I will and shall forget them. But all those sweet and happy memories created and those strangers I befriended and loved till now, you guys will not be forgotten! You'll forever always be the cherry that cherished my otherwise miserable part of my life. I love you guys forever. BFFL remember? <3 :D

Enough said. This post is getting longer non-intendedly. It's already May. The weather is so-so. It's cold and windy and rains one second and the next second, it's hot as hell. Take care guys. Don't get a flu like me. :)

" Don't live like it's your last day. That's dumb. You'd be like, crying. 

Make today awesome and live like it's today. "

"People often say that ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder,’ 

and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder. 

This empowers us to find beauty in places where others have not dared to look, including inside ourselves."

"Think how many people have sat next to you on a bus, train, whatever. Now think how many people have sat next to you on purpose, with their fingers crossed in hope that you’ll talk to them. I’m sure somebody has. There’s plenty of times when somebody’s seen you and hoped that you spoke to them, but you never did, ‘cause you don’t have the guts, and neither do they. Don’t go around thinking nobody likes you and that you’re not loved, there’s been plenty of times when a stranger’s spotted you and thought “oh they’re just my type,” but haven’t had the courage or confidence to open their mouth and initiate a conversation, the funny thing is, neither have you."

 

" When I'm older, and my little girl asks me who my first love was, 

I don't want to have to pull out the old photo album. 

I want to be able to point across the room and say, 'he is sitting right over there.' "

 

 

Dear you.

i wanna be the reason for that smile on your face. :)

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Life so far.

I've ditched my blog again.. Sigh.. I've got no time plus, my broadband line suck.. >:( Humm.. Form 5 life is really busy. To add to that, teachers keep giving loads of homework like we're not stressed enough. =_______= I feel like I don't even have a second to catch my breath. :( Anyways, it's Good Friday tomorrow. Going to church in the late afternoon. Ooh! And, PC fair starts tomorrow too. I'm going there anyway even if I would end up buying nothing. xD It's what I call 'window shopping' or my mum would say 'cuci mata'. xD Yeah, I hope I'll find something good and not that 'spendsive' for me to buy. lol. Then, this saturday, I'm going for a one day trip to Borneo Rainforest Resort. :P I'm gonna have fun while I still can now cause in a few month, I'mma be locked up inside my room studying for my SPM. xD Lol, nahh.. I'll be on full-studying mode but I'll not lock myself in my room and not come out. I'm not THAT emo. Hmm.. What else? Oh, today our school's brass band drum-line performed for the whole school. One word — awesome. Enough said. xD They'll sure win the drum-line competition. Hmm.. almost midnight, Imma go off now. I'll not be up here that frequent anymore. But I'll come back when the time comes. Sayonara! :D

Fishaturday xD

I'm currently in Limbang cause my parents' voting place is here for the state elections. In the morning, my parents went to cast their votes and I'm left at my grandparents' home. It's so friggin' hot cause there's no electricity there. Yeahs. Under BN. *rolls eyes* Enough about that, I went fishing for the first time in my life! Fyi, my grandparents' house is beside a river. Yeah, so I fish there. Guess what?! I caught two fish! :P Yay me! My cousins got nothing. Ha-ha-ha! LOL Bad me! xD My first fish is around 14cm long and the second one is around 20cm long. I would have caught a third one but the fish pulled so hard that my fishing rod went flying into the waters! The third one could've been a bigger fish cause it pulls so hard that it caught me off guard. :\ Not only I lost the fish, I lost the rod too. :( Anyway, it's a good experience. I'm loving fishing! :D Maybe next time I'll fish again when I go back there. F-U-N! Hwaiting~! :)

And oh yeah, I'm not about to talk politics. I'm neutral. Enough said. :)

 

你可以不要对我那么冷吗？

你会太看重感情吗？我会。

太看重感情的人都是這樣的：

1、容易滿足更容易受傷
2、總有一種被忽視的感覺
3、付出的遠遠超過得到的
4、很固執、不懂得放棄
5、總是說著要離開，卻一再為自己找不離開的理由
6、在別人面前笑得很開心，一個人的時候....卻很漠落
7、在陌生人面前很安靜，在朋友面前胡鬧
8.、不會想索要的太多的回報，只要一點點就可以讓我死心塌地，可以很少、但一定要有
9、心情不好的時候，卻喜歡聽悲歌
10、坐在電腦前不知道做什麼，卻又不想關掉它
11、覺得世界上每一個人都不可靠，但卻還是那樣地選擇相信別人
12、偶爾會有種想消失的念頭
13、不喜歡等待卻總是等待
14、經常不經意的發呆
15、總會把事情想得很長久
16、總是覺得沒有人會把自己放在心裡疼
17、心事放在心底，有一個自己的世界
18、習慣了沉默，在沉默中爆發
19、會懷疑，卻總是要把人往好處想
20、不喜歡一個人逛街
21、一點點事就胡思亂想
22、自己走路會很快
23、隱藏心事，喜歡一個人流淚
24、習慣冷戰
25、喜歡角落、習慣蜷縮
26、莫名地孤單，無法抗拒的恐懼感
27、不愛說話或很愛說話

不许哭。

我知道我矮，不用你来提醒我。

我知道我丑，不用你来跟我讲。

我知道我笨，不用你来取笑我。

我每天勉强自己、告诉自己：我不许哭。

可是，眼泪还是会情不自禁的掉下来。

You make me smile and fly again. :)

Please don't.

Moving. To another house, sure. But moving to another state?! Definite no-no. Never! I don't wanna move again! Please, think of other plans, plans that don't involve moving to another unfamiliar place. I don't want to. I don't wanna start everything all over again. I don't want my life now to be just a reminder of what had been. I don't wanna leave. I wanna stay. Or I'll break down, again. :'(

Spazing and rantings and happy april fools! :D

Dongwoonie's six pack! *spaz* xD

Yay! My music playlist thingy is back! I have no idea what happened to it last few weeks. Maybe the website broke down or something. -____o? Oh well, at least it's here now. :D Finally, we're have pjk class tomorrow. Sadly, i don't think the teacher would let us play badminton or basketball. :( I wanna play badminton and basketball la teacher! >___________< Life's not all about studying and no exercise! It's not healthy. And so am I cause I've not exercised for a hella long time! Even my basketball lose it's air and become half-deflated. :( Oh well.. Btw, for the first time today this year, my tears drop when I'm in school. Keep telling myself to smile even if things turns on you or don't go your way. :) Gotta practice more on that. xD Uhmm, well, now it's 12:12am on 1st of April, so, HAPPY APRIL FOOLS GUYS!

PS: Don't make a prank that's too over.

You'll hurt people's feelings.

Remember to say sorry if you did okay?

:)

Wait! :)

To experience what it feels like to be really, truly happy for once in my life.

:'(

I wish I don't have any sense of feelings or emotions. Yea, I'll be like a robot, but at least I wouldn't get hurt by people's words or actions. My heart will be safe and protected. But it's too late. 

You can't break a heart again if it's already broken. And it can't be mended back to the way it used to be. It wouldn't be perfect anymore. The scars will always be there, forever. And there's nothing anyone can do to cure it.


I'll be sleeping with my wet pillow tonight and every other night.

The sky is crying

Another soul gone back to Him.. May you rest in peace.. :(

What's happening with our kind? Why are we getting more inhuman? Have we lost all our humanity? Sigh.. This generation of ours.. I'm scared of it.. I really do..

On this day of your life,  

we believe God wants you to know that this world was made for you too.

Enjoy it, explore it, experience it. Don't hold back. It is God's gift to you. 

Don't be a wallflower in the dance of life. 

Words may sting but silence is what breaks the heart.

We all should just let it out..

So our hearts wouldn't be hurt again and again by it..

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

I'm back! Finally I got the will to turn on my laptop and update something.. Been kinda lazy and super sleepy these few days.. Aighh.. So, I'm gonna update about my mid-term exam result.. Here it is, and don't laugh at it! =_____=  

BM-77

ENGLISH-88  

SEJARAH-84  

ADD.MATHS-25  

MATHS-71  

BIOLOGY-56  

PHYSICS-38  

CHEMISTRY-44  

P.AKAUN-82  

P.MORAL-75  

SIVIK-92

Bad right? Even though I got like 6A for the 10 subjects in SPM if based on this result-which is not that bad-, I failed physics and add. maths, D for chemistry and B- for biology.. My three science subjects sucked as hell! that includes add. maths too.. >______<  I'm not even good at these subjects.. It makes me so tired trying to struggle to be staying in science side.. Ughh, and the pressure.. doubles.. ;______; Ottokhae?! :(

Countdown to SPM-about 8 more months.. Gotta catch up fast with the syllabus for Form 5.. Then, do a hell lot of revision for Form 4.. *dies* I used to be a quitter.. Quitting is one of my ways to solve some things.. I regretted my decisions back then.. And I still am a quitter now.. but I'm not gonna give up that easily without a fight..! Just gotta constantly remind myself for who, what and why am I doing all of this for.. For my future self.. 

PS: 炎, FIGHTING!! 

^_______^ 

Prove to yourself that 

You are not a quitter!

BEAST IS THE B2ST!

I ❤ BEAST!

I spent my whole week of mid-term holiday turning into a BEAST fangirl! LOL Yeah, I can't believe it either.. Haha xD But they're really awesome! I was ughh.. droo*cough*ling looking at pictures and videos of them.. >_<" I'm a B2UTY!! Yay! As in B2UTY and the BEAST, where the B2UTYs are their fans.. Get it?? PS, I'm not the one who came up with it.. xD All the six members, Doojoon, Hyunseung, Junhyung, Dongwoon, Yoseob and Kikwang are my biases! Hahaha xD They're just different and awesome in their own way that it's hard to choose only one or two.. But I love Dongwoon maknae the most~! :D *insert fangirl screams here* xD Anyways, I LOVE all of them.. ❤ I really wanna buy all 5 of their mini-albums.. Don't know if Speedy got it.. Hmmm.. I hope they have sell them.. I wan't it soooo bad I would cryy!! LOLOL Aigoo~ I'm crazy for them already! I listened to them whenever possible everyday and I downloaded tons of their photos and I saved all of their song's lyrics and I have them as my wallpaper and screen saver.. xD I guess I am crazy for them.. Tee-hee.. (-'_'-) Nganganga... *drools* They're just soo cute! :] Not to mention HOT! xD I hope I can meet them tonight in my dream.. jk haha xD Imma stop this post with their photos!! :))) 

 

 

 

 

 OMO~! HOT~! *drools* xD

 

 Okay~! Good night~! BEAST Jjang!! ❤

STFU!

JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!

CAN'T YOU GO A SECOND WITHOUT BLOWING UP AT ME?

DON'T BLAME IT ON ME!

YOU'RE WRONG TOO!

FUCK!

DON'T FORGET THAT I AM WHO I AM NOW BECAUSE OF YOU!

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO MAKE ME WHO OR WHAT I AM NOW!

YOU WANNA MAKE ME STOP?!

WELL YOU STOP GETTING MAD AT EVERYTHING I DO

AND I'LL STOP GETTING ON YOUR NERVES!

JUST STOP IT BEFORE THE MONSTER'S UNLEASHED!

DON'T MAKE ME GO BACK TO THE WAY I USED TO!

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The Beast Locker: Some Fun Facts :D

The Beast Locker: Some Fun Facts :D : "Okay so there's nothing much I feel like updating so I'm just gonna post some fun facts I read a few hours ago about some fun facts about BEAST members."

♥

 

I'm addicted to drinking milk. ♥

I wish I have a fridge full of milk to drink as much as I want. :P

PS: I'm drinking milk to grow taller.

Hopefully I still can.

*fingers crossed*

:P

I wish...

I wish I can do what they do.

It's so beautiful. :')

The I-Heart Revolution

Have you ever wonder,

How much time do we have left?

Is tomorrow going to come?

What if I can't live pass today?

What if I go to sleep tonight and don't wake up the next day?

Well, I do, sometimes.

How many tomorrow do I've got left?

Obviously, you and I certainly don't have an answer to that.

I'm not being emo or whatever but I'm worried.

I'm scared for this generation of ours.

Wars, disasters, hunger, sickness and inequality everywhere.

Somehow, we humans got blinded and lost.

When there's something bad happens, we always blame the world.

But we never blame ourselves.

It is us who caused them.

We are responsible for it.

So we need to make a change.

I need to start make a change.

But how can I help?

1. It’s our responsibility as believers to represent a loving God who cares about the everyday lives of all people;
2. We have a God who has shown us HOW to help, and;
3. There ARE experts in all our communities with some answers.

Historically the Church has got it wrong in so many ways and owes quite a few apologies. But this generation – the people that are alive on our planet – YOU! – have the opportunity to get it right.

SO… HOW? – We have to look at how Jesus helped people.

Put simply, He served. He got down in the dirt. He got His hands dirty. He didn’t judge. He washed feet. He knelt. He asked the blind man, "what do you want?" – rather than telling him “you must want to be healed.”
Let us, as respresentatives of His Church today, imitate Christ in our service. Not to build numbers, not to build a reputation, not to gain power, but to love selflessly and sacrificially, the way that Christ loved and served people.

Let’s ask "HOW CAN I HELP?" to people locally, in the know. – Let’s even ask the people in need.

Let’s not be a Church that supplies soup to the well fed, yet still desperately lonely people. Let’s not provide housing to those already with shelter, but desperately sick. Let’s be a Church that finds out what people’s needs are – that takes the time to ask “HOW CAN I HELP?”

So… We guess the answer to the question “HOW CAN I HELP?” is exactly that – ask – “HOW CAN I HELP?” and then serve like Jesus served, with no strings attached.

[source: http://www.i-heart.org/ ]  

PS: I cried again today. :'(

Life is just so unpredictable.

Still, we've gotta have faith.

Believe.

Sooner or later,

God's second coming will come.

It's just a matter of time.

We need to prepare ourselves for it now.

New Layout! :D

Rah-rah!! I've changed to my new layout! :)) So, what do you think? Nice? xD I also changed my blog title to "Day By Day". Yes, I got the idea from Bigbang's song "Haru Haru/Day by Day" song okay? x) Hmm.. Leave me comments at the chatbox there! :P

Update! Finally finished mid-sem exam today! Imma freeman freewoman! Hahaha xD Oh yeah! I've got a whole week of holiday! Well, it's not that long, but still, hurray for holiday! \(^_^)/ Happy happy times. :D At least I don't have to wake up like 5.30am for school. ^^ Right now I don't have any plans for this holiday, but I'm sure something will come up. I wanna watch movies!! Hehehe.

Hmm.. Maybe I'll post something later.. Got some stuff to do now.. Ciao~!

Imma go on hibernating mode! Buh-bye! :'(

Umm.. I'm gonna be away for a week.. Starting tomorrow I hope.. Wish me luck in resisting temptations to take out my lappy, going online and spending hours on internet especially Facebook.. XD *crosses fingers* Why am I going on hibernating mode you ask? Well, it's cause of the mid-semester exam next week and I haven't started studying.. *DIE* Hmm.. I don't know why, but I have no mood to study.. Every time I pick up a book to start revising, suddenly I lost the urge to study.. Ughh.. :\ Yeah.. So.. Buh-bye cyberworld! Gonna miss ya so badly! :( Hard for me to admit it, but yeah, I'm addicted to internet. Gotta go on it every single day and if I don't, I'll feel awkward.. Like something's missing.. XD Ehmm.. In the last post I told you guys I would change my skin, but sadly, not now and not in this following week. I've already picked Top 3 skin that I'd use.. Unfortunately, I've got zero time to care about that right now.. If I do, I'll need lotsa time to edit those htmls.. *which, I kinda dislike to do* :\ Humm.. It's almost 9:50PM.. Gotta go soon! Idk whether I'll take a nap or start studying.. Papers on monday is English, Maths and History. English is whatever! but I gotta get good marks on Maths and great marks on History paper. Ah Bahl is not gonna be happy when she sees low marks for History paper.. Sigh.. 12 papers to take! including Civics and Physical Education.. We don't even have teachers teaching or classes to attend for both subjects! =A= Ouuhhh! Gotta go! I'm kinda tired now.. Maybe I'll go be a pig and take my piggy sleep. lol XD 

PS: Been kinda crazy today..

Guess pressure got a hold on me aye?

Buh-bye! || さようなら

Miss me aight? <3

I'm BLAH-ING XD

哇哈哈！学校放假4天！我可以迟睡迟醒啦！哈哈哈！一个字——爽！:P

昨天，我和琴去逛逛了。我，真的花了很多钱。一次过买了不少化妆品！（啊啦！不信啊？我也是个女生呗~哪个女生不爱美呢~哈哈！XD）我买了： makeup brush， eyeliner， eyeshadow， mascara， fake eyelashes 还有一个放化妆品的盒子。我也买了一件t-shirt还有新的legging。琴呢，她打了耳洞！打了之后一直喊痛！而且耳朵通红！哈哈哈！XD

昨天，很好玩，也很心痛。
我的钱，像水一样留得这么快。

今天，我try了full makeup。然后就开始自恋咯！XD 要看的话，去我的fb专页看！（我不会自恋到去post自己的自恋照在这儿！XD）我觉得化的eyeshadow不明显，是那种bronze color的。但不用紧，我可以加油，把我的底子弄好！ :)

Since这星期我比较有空，可能会帮我的宝贝blogger换个new look！我喜欢简单的style。我很期待啊！ :D

下个星期就是mid-sem exam了！唉！累啊！
All I can say is that there IS something like a "too much exam/test" in life！


" Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down.
  Down~ Down~
  Baby, I am down, down, down, down, down."


Yea, I'm starting to get all crazy. Shhh. :X
Oh! By the way, it's already March!
OMG, where did the time go. :\

Anyway, bye! :D

-네가 좋아-
-君が好きです- 

PS: 对不起啊！

很久没上来update了！

（〉—〈）

Blind.

I wish I could go to a masquerade dance.

No one will know who you are. We’ll all go full-out on this event, and be dressed up in dresses & tuxedos, with beautiful masks concealing our identities. No one knows who’s who. Therefore, no one to judge you, because they don’t know who “you” really are.

For once, we can all be the same, without the ‘rankings’ of who is popular, who is not, who is pretty, who is ugly, etc. We can dance together, converse together, laugh together, enjoy each other’s company, and become friends.

And in the end, we all take off our masks, and find out; did you dance with an hated enemy or a loved friend? Laugh with that lonely weirdo or that popular quarterback? Converse with an ex or someone you had a crush on? Are you shocked, embarrassed, surprised, awkward?

But, if you had a good time with them… Does it really even matter?


Maybe all that I’ve said is probably some fantasy. Everyone’s probably going to look for their friends, guys will go for the girls with the best hair and bodies, etc. But I just want to say... You don’t always have to judge someone by their looks or story. Get to know them, talk to them, and find out who they really are first, yeah?

 

 

PS: Please..
Never judge a book by its cover..
Seriously..

一个人..

独自一人时..什么都得自己来..

流泪了..
对自己说:"还有自己陪着你..不要怕,不要哭.."


寂寞了..
对自己说:"不寂寞,不寂寞..还有自己呢!!"


害怕了..
对自己说:"不怕,不怕..还有自己呢!!"


难过了..
对自己说:"别这样..很快就会过去了.."


哭够了..
对自己说:"好了..该擦干眼泪了..这世界不允许你哭.."


撑不下去了..
对自己说:"快站起来..不要倒下去..现实没时间让你倒下.."


时时刻刻都要提醒自己..
记得..
这个世界就是那么的现实..
犯错,流泪,脆弱..
在这世界是不被允许的..

PS: 无论什么时候,什么情况..

你只能坚强..
你只能撑着..
倒下了不代表什么..
只意味着..

你输了..

生病了

唉。两天没上学了。生病。 :(  拜三上课时候突然头痛、全身发冷、伤风还有发高烧。这两天我睡了很多，吃的药也不只一种。舌头都觉得怪怪的了。在家我自己检查我的blood sugar level还有blood pressure，两个都很正常。我真的不懂到底中了什么病。Clinic呢，我没去。唉。现在想东西来写blog都难。搞什么啦！>:(  这次的update是废的咯。没什么心情要写。头痛啊！

Life. Recently.

2011年的一月过啦！没想到酱快地。 (o_o)? 本来新年在林梦庆祝的。可是不辛的事发生，所以连吃团圆饭都没了。

1月29号

藕们全家人还有亲戚都去汶莱庆祝表弟的生日。本来开开心心的。那里懂我舅母在on the way去汶莱中到stroke then 晕倒。那时候因为不同车，所以藕不懂。表弟的生日派对没有被cancel因为已经很多人还有被请来的magician到了。 那个magician的trick很predictable的咯。藕，哥还有表哥在旁边说说那magician的trick怎样怎样。笑死啦！XD 这时啊，妈，舅舅，小舅，大姨去汶莱的医院去看舅母。他们很迟才回来。Closing的时候，二姨叫藕跟小孩子们玩个游戏。OMG！闷的！By the way, 那游戏不是藕想出来的！藕也是到了二姨家才动摇赔笑孩子玩的。>_< Musical chair都还比那个game好玩几十倍啦！*无奈* 本来哥也被叫跟藕一起陪他们玩。哪里知道他跟表哥溜走了！丢下藕一个人！T^T 妈他们回来，说舅母用着oxygen machine呼吸。Heart bleeding。Pump出来的都是血。藕晚上3点才睡。

1月30日

早上9.30去汶莱的Catholic Church。里面好美好美。有两楼还有冷气。爽闭了！为舅母祈祷了。过后去医院。舅母头脑出血、right side的眼睛盲了。血压还很高。还在coma。爸妈说今天去林梦settle一些咚咚。回去阿姨家拿行李就出发了。晚上到了林梦家。藕又迟睡啦! ( " 3 ")zZ

1月31号

迟醒来。爸妈去弄咚咚。藕爸side的公公，婆婆，伯伯，叔叔and姑姑来藕家。谈谈谈。藕的broadband出问题，没能上网。下午下雨了。妈说明天要回去汶莱。藕今晚还是迟睡啦。

2月1号

早上藕9点多醒。洗澡、收拾行李。外公来了。谈谈谈。知道外公的车轮漏风。吃午餐。等爸和哥回来。外公去'repair'轮胎。爸和哥回来。不久出发。到汶莱医院。他们说要带舅母去美里医院。很多prosedure。Hospital bill也不少，而且是Brunei Dollar。大概快要4点下午，ambulance准备出发来美里。藕一家人也要出发了。倒霉的是，藕们的车轮也漏风！花了很久时间换去spare轮胎。然后去goodyear轮胎店弄好车轮。好了就出发。晚上8点左右到美里。藕头晕晕的，也伤风了。吃了两粒panadol就睡了。那是大概晚上10点的时候。

2月2号

藕睡得像猪一样，早上12点多才醒来。听歌、看电视节目。爸买午餐回来。过不久妈和外婆从医院回来。妈说舅母brain dead了。今晚，别人开开心心吃团圆饭，藕们就好像没过新年酱。没吃到团圆饭。12点和哥看烟花。很美。有星星形的。最特别的是心形的。想到给我在面子书poke的某人啦。知道你不爱玩信息，但你还是回复我信息了。:] 你，应该不懂吧？藕默默就好。今晚也是迟睡贝。><"

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Dear God,

你answered藕的prayer了吗？不懂你是不是用这个方式来告诉藕藕以后应该要走怎样的路。所发生的事，是不是你再给藕藕接下来的direction？妈side的阿姨在汶莱医院的时候问藕是否要当医生。然后在林梦，爸side的阿姨懂了所发生的事后也问藕同样的问题。主，这是你要藕走的路吗？是的话，藕可以接受，但藕不懂藕有没有那个能力去当个医生。你也知道，藕不是那么聪明的人。藕也是个不够strong去面对挑战的人、容易放弃的人。要走这条路应该不简单吧？藕希望你能够陪藕、给藕力量、lead藕，让藕能live藕的life according to你的计划。还有，如果能的话，show to me that miracles can happen。

A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.

Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.
And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you.

Today was kinda boring. Prefects are all gone to Gua Long for Prefect Camp. So Lian Ling is not at class. >_< Frankly, Qin was not at school for the past few days. No wonder I don't see her at school or her coming to class to find me. Lucky her. She can sleep all she wants in the morning. Not like me who needs to get up at 5.30AM every weekdays. Aishh. Today, I-AM-BORED-AS-HELL. = =" Good thing is, we basically don't study today. Some teachers are absent. And, we've got PJK today and teacher allows us to play badminton at the school hall. \(^^)/ I've haven't play badminton - even exercise - for quite a long time. That explains my laziness to even move a muscle. Lol. Yeah, I'm one lazy girl. >///< 

Next week, I'm really gonna D-I-E. Going to have History Topical Test for Form 4 Chapter 1 to 10. TEN chapters and I haven't started yet! It's on next Friday. Before that, I'm going to have Biology Topical Test for Form 4 Chapter 7 till 9. Also, I haven't touch biology reference book yet and it's on Wednesday. God, help me get through all of this. You know I can't handle these stuff on my own. :(

I'm still choosing what career I wanna get into and what course I'm gonna take in college or pre-u. Yeah. I know. It's kinda late and I'm still a blur. Ughh. I'm not good at physics, chemistry and additional maths. Biology is okay, for now. I think I'm more to the art side than the science side? Ahh! Imma make myself go nuts if it's like this. Let's see, when I was young, I used to want to grow up to be a dentist, a chef, a hair-dresser(LOL), a policewoman(DOUBLE LOL), an engineer, a pediatrician and a lot more crazy ambitions. Everyone seems to have an ambition in their mind already. Just a snap, and they know what they want. Why can't I be like that too? Sigh. T^T

Hmm.. Today during Chemistry period, the teacher got angry cause the class was too annoyingly noisy. Well, can't help it. It's 100% true but some of the students weren't that noisy. Lian Ling and I thought she was nearly crying. After she gave us homework, she stormed out of the class. We guessed she's going back to the office and God knows what will happen tomorrow. :\

After today's school ended, I was supposed to follow Qin's car back home. But then her car broke down and had to wait till 2.30pm for her mum to pick us up. After that, back to Qin's house cause need to check and fix the car. While waiting, Qin and I went to ride bicycle - and a big one at that! I didn't ride on a bicycle for at least 5-6 years. But I pick up quick and soon I can ride with one hand handling and even standing while cycling! Nice.. And suddenly I wanted to have a bicycle to ride. Haha. XD Also, first time eat curry noodles at her house. Sooo kick!! My mouth was near to spitting fire!! LOL.

At home, I was expecting mum to come back here from Kuching today. But then I received a call from mum. She says all fights from Kuching will be canceled for today cause there's an AirAsia flight 'terkandas' at the landasan.. So she only can come home tomorrow evening. >w< Aishh.. Too many shit happens this last few days.. I'm going mad!! @_@ So now I'm home alone again.. *help me* Tomorrow morning uncle will pick me up at home go to school. Then, I will go back home at 1.15pm after Maths period and skip Sivik period. Because I have no transport after that time. Haiz.. Why is my life like this? >< I'll bet no one's life is like this..

PS: Too many homeworks today.

Help!!

Imma die!! x_x

Outbreak. Disaster. FML! =3=

傳說…轻度强迫症的孩子會這樣。♥
by 優質血統

01✿戴耳机的时候必须看清了左右才戴。
02✿喜欢咬吸管、纸杯、棒棒糖棍儿。
03✿看到喜欢的本子就会买下来收藏，但是却不舍得在本子上写字。
04✿定闹钟五分钟一次，但还是不肯起。
05✿怀疑门没有锁。

06✿喜欢挤包装电器的那种带泡泡的塑料纸。
07✿明明对方的电话打不通或关机，还是一次次重复拨号，挂断。
08✿吃彩虹糖，连续两次吃的不能是同一种颜色。
09✿自己的博客模板看不顺眼就会不停地换，直到满意为止。
10✿突然想写东西，又没有本子，就会写在纸巾上。

11✿吃完一板板的药片，把周围的铝箔纸全部撕掉。
12✿反复检查记录下的东西或填写的表格。
13✿电脑桌面的图标一定要按照一定的排列顺序。
14✿离开一个地方之前要上上下下左左右右的看两遍以上。
15✿睡觉前一定要把拖鞋摆放整齐。

16✿调音量一定要调到自己顺眼的数字。
17✿删除文件后，一定要清空回收站。
18✿容易将他人写的一些文字对号入座，胡思乱想。
19✿发呆时一次次在桌面上右击刷新或刷新页面。
20✿看到别人没把黑板擦干净就觉得别扭。
21✿习惯用日期去记录

Out of 21, 除了15其它的都中.. 囧  难怪之前觉得我自己有点不正常.. :X
我可能真的有轻度强迫症唉..

It's only the first week and I'm already busy with homework and stuffs. I never expect Form 5 life to be this fast-paced and stressful. I'm not good at handling stress or tensions. Once, it got to me and I make the stupid decision to quit a club that was an experience of a lifetime. I really regretted that decision badly. I think now I'm much better at controlling them than a few years ago. My emotions were a wreak. Now, at least I learned how to motivate myself a bit instead of panicking over little stress. Huhh.. Just finished my part of the BM oral test script. It's L-O-N-G! :\ Then, need to prepare the English oral test script which I have no idea what the title is. Teacher says it should be something you're interested in. Hmm.. Interested in huh? I like watching anime, playing games, drawing, reading novels, chatting and bla, bla, blah.. Well, that's not the correct answer for the question.. Btw, it's supposed to be an interview dialogue.. So WHO am I gonna interview? -period- o_O" *smash head on keyboard* Ouch! :\

PS: Don't Procrastinate!

Do what you gotta do!

Second day of school.. (Omo! Why the day pass so slow? ><) Hmm.. Quite bored cause 阳光美女 not at class to company me chat.. So I'm practically silent most of the time.. She won't be back in class until next week.. Aishh.. Right now I'm rushing my english narrative writing essay.. What? Already so late! Still haven't finished writing.. >w< Ciao for now.. 

PS: Learned today that:

"An idle mind is the devil's workshop."

Not bad, for motivating people to keep the brain working. lol XD

Today Sivik teacher asked us what's our ambition. Looks like I'm not the only one who still haven't have one yet. Honestly I really have no clue about what I wanna be. My biology, chemistry, physics and additional maths subject sucks. So, I can't see myself being a doctor or a dentist as I've dreamed of becoming when I'm just a young lass who doesn't know about how hard it is to achieve dreams. T^T I've even thought of changing to art side instead of science side but my mum thought it'll be a waste. Aishh.. Eotteohkehae hanayo? It's so hard to choose. Dear God, help me and show the path for me, just the right one to take. And possibly, a.s.a.p.. cause if not, it'll be too late. -prayshard- Hmm.. Gotta go. Can't sleep too late cause I'm down with flu, and a terrible one at that. >_<

PS: It's the first day of school

and I'm already tired.

Gotta make a change yeah?

OMO!! School's gonna start already? TT^TT Aishh.. I haven't pick up a book to study this holiday.. Just back from celebrating the new year in Brunei.. Damn tired.. And I'm sick.. I've gotten a flu.. *curses* :X Anyway, just a quick update. Can't be online that much anymore.. :( Bye..

PS: THIS IS IT!

MY FINAL YEAR!
Gambate neh!