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Going through some websites and I saw this quote so I posted it here... :)

"..I always knew, looking back on the tears would make me laugh..

But, I never knew, looking back on the laughs would make me cry.."

Today is the last day in the month of May 2010... June is coming tomorrow! That means it's around 14 days to Phoebe's birthday and 22 days to my birthday!! Yay!! Can't wait!! :D

30 May 2010

Gonna have a quick post tonight... Hmm.. I went to church in the morning... Went to eat dim sum... Then, go eat ice-cream... Got home... Downloading loads of K-Pop songs... Went out again to Limbang Plaza... Btw, I'm currently in Limbang... And got myself a cap...

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My First Video!! ^^

My first video...
Well, it a song with lyrics... :)
Enjoy..

Get a Life!! You Hypocrites!!

Do I know you that well?! I didn't recall that I ever talk to you in class!! You're like a stranger to me!! So who the hell are you to judge me? Who are you to use my stuffs? What do you think I am?! A charity society?! Hmpph!! Think I don't know what you say behind my back?! Well, you're so wrong!! So come on!! Say it in front of me if you dare!! Don't hide behind people's back like a scaredy little mouse!! And you're "gang" of bitches are just the same as you!! No wonder you're all in a gang!! You all are low!! Lower than the dirt that people step on!! Lower than shit! Pfftt!! *spit on your faces* You're all are just hypocrites who loves to think good and feel good about yourself!! Thanks to people like you bitches, the world is gonna end sooner!! Thanks a lot!! NOT!! 

Remember this: Karma WILL get to you sooner or later!! If it doesn't, then you'll suffer in the scorching hot fire of HELL when you die!! Your soul will suffer forever and you'll scream of the punishment you get!! 

A word of advice to you and you're gang: Wake up!! Arrogance wont get you anywhere but the destruction of yourself!! Don't judge people lightly!! Look into yourself first before saying about others cause the truth will hit you hard in the head after that!! 

Lastly, if you're gonna have one on one fists fight with me, say it out loud, and I'll be waiting to bite your head off, kick you in the gut and punch your fucking face!! If reality hits you in the head or you're still a scaredy little mouse, then don't mess with me!! I'm not "Ms. Nice Girl" when I'm pissed!! 

Beware!! Seriously!! If I hate you, I'll make sure you're DEAD!! I'm not joking!!

I'm a massive dormant volcano waiting to erupt!!

Looking forward to 3 weeks of holidays?

Yeap... I'm looking forward to it... I'm excited! :) But I'm afraid that it's gonna be "sit at home and do nothing" kinda holidays... It's three weeks of holidays!! THREE!! I don't want my holidays to be that boring and dull... I want it to be a memorable one... The one that I want and I will remember when I'm like about 80(if live that long)... I want every holidays to be a great memory... Full with friends and family... My parents planned out our "holidays" already... That is... Going back to kampung... For one week... ZZzzz... Argh.. Sometimes I don't really like to balik kampung... I know it's nice to see your relatives again and all but I'm totally bored!! I have ZERO friends there and all I can do is online to talk with my friends... Ahh!! So, my brother who's currently studying in Sibu is gonna come back here in Miri with a bus on like Friday or Saturday... Then, we go back to Limbang by our car.. Hmmm.. I will be there for one whole week... So I have like 2 weeks holidays left.. Don't know what I'm gonna do during those times... ZZzzz... Kinda hope for a primary school reunion but nobody's organizing it... The only thing left is to hang out with my friends whole day... Or... Tryna get myself a part time job... Hmm.. Maybe not on the job thing... XD Enough about holidays... My dad is back for good!! He finished his study at Kuching there and he's gonna have graduation ceremony during October in KL!! Yay!! I'm going to KL! I'm going to KL! lol... ps: I've never been out of Sarawak before... Except to Brunei.. ><" Haha XD Okay... I think I had enough ranting for today... XD Buaizz!! :)

我的生活，
让我很忙，
一天的24小时不过我享用。
我的生活，
让我很累，
身体的累和精神上的累。
有时候，我不想再坚持下去。
现在，
我过着的是没有目标的生活。
每天，
都等着时间一秒一秒地消失。
这种生活，
我早已习惯了，
但我觉得这样的生活很累。
我想念以前的我，
小时候的我。
当时的我，
能单纯天真开开心心的过生活。
当时的我，
没有觉得累，
也没有一丝的烦恼。
我很想回到那时候的我。
然后希望时间能暂停在那儿。
因为，
我不喜欢、不想、不要和不愿意长大。
可惜，
我没能控制时间，
而人总是要长大。
我只能学会面对一切的一切。
疲倦了，
累了，
就暂时忘记所有烦恼，
好好地休息。
过后，
就继续努力面对眼前的障碍。
我只能告诉自己：“加油吧！”

Opened the door of my house.
Walked in the house.
Loneliness surrounding me.
My house is empty.
Nothing seems right.
It's not supposed to be empty.
It's not supposed to make people feel empty.
My house is not a home.
It's only just a place.
It's dead.
Just like everything in it.

You don't know what it's like to be like me

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark 

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

"It's easier to pretend you're happy rather than explain why you're not."

原来我对你来说是那么的不重要！ 

闷的时候，会找我聊天！

当见到别人的时候，你就把我推在一边，把我当成空气一样透明！ 

难道我不是人嘛！

难道我没有感觉的嘛！ 

我看，你从来没把我当朋友！ 

一直以来，我看你只把我当成随时随地可以被丢弃的玩偶！ 

我讨厌这个你！ 

我很傻！ 

太傻了！ 

我为什么要因为你这种人伤心流泪！ 

你这种人不值得我流泪！ 

对你来说，我们的友情只是那两个字而已！

你从没把‘友情’放在眼里！ 

算了！

你要继续装下去就装吧！ 

我陪你玩！

我会一直玩，玩到受伤的人是你！ 

到时你就知道我的痛苦！

不爽！！

我今天很不爽！超不爽！我不爽学校死狗老师！我不爽学校校规！超不爽那些自以为是的人！KANASAI！人家赢了，认输啦！还要跟老师打小报告！SHIT啦！不爽就来跟我单挑！看你以后还敢不敢打小报告！这种人给我滚远远的！最好滚进地狱！那里最适合你们这种废物的！他妈的！FUCK啊！

Handball Game Day 2 aka THE SEMI-FINAL and FINAL!!!

Woohoo!!! As you all know, we made it to the semi-final! So the first game we played today is against, Saturn A, Phoebe's team. It's fun although we had to play against our friends. We won 8-2 against them if I'm not mistaken. Let's see, when playing with Saturn, I got hit by the ball on my face and sprained my already sprained thumb AGAIN on the first half! Then, the Mercury team play against Venus. As expected, Mercury won. I hate them! They played super rough! After that, Venus played against Saturn to grab the third place title. Sadly, Saturn lose and Venus is in the third place.

Then, IT'S TIME!! FINAL GAME!! Jupiter VS Mercury. Both team never lose any game against other teams. Before stepping in the court, I made a sign of the cross and touch the line of the court, just like the football players always do in TV. Y.C said she saw me doing that sign. Anyway! Wow! Playing against Mercury made me super serious and my inner 'tiger' just jumped out of me! I got my super rough basketball girl self back! YES! BRILLIANT!! Great timing! Mercury played it rough, but we played harder! I rolled on the court for at least twice when grabbing the ball from Mercury players. One of them scratched my hand! They always pulled my team mates when we're trying to run forward and get the ball! Half time, it was 4-2 and we're ahead of them. After few minutes rest, we played again for the next half. They're rough I can tell you that! The Saturn team cheered for us! Yay! Thanks guys! :) I never played so serious the day before. Today's my stomach muscles hurt so bad. My sprained thumb also hurt so bad! Argh! By the way, I've gone twice to get first-aid for my thumb before playing against Mercury. Mallory also did. In the end, we won! Jupiter won! 

When we walked out of the court, Y.C accidentally made the girl who scratched me tripped on the ground! WAHAHA! SERVE YOU RIGHT! Then, she thought it was me who made her fall and she said: "SHIT!" and walked away. There was so much rage in me that I showed my middle finger TWICE! HAHA! Then, Phoebe came and belanja me 100 Plus! 爽! Mercury team was on our far left side gathering. They said lots of things about us!  We also talked back loudly at them. HMMPH! Stupid! It's the art of the game in sport! YOU WIN SOME, YOU LOSE SOME! They just don't get it! FUCK THEM! FUCK THEIR SHITTING FACE! So what if you're Form 5 and more senior than us? So what if you got a discipline prefect on you're team? You still LOSE! Arrogance wont get you anywhere! Remember that! It's the moral of the story! At least we won FAIR AND SQUARE!! Not like the SHIT team who only knows how to play rough! Jupiter team and Saturn team were over the moon when we beat that team. It's a SWEET REVENGE!! WOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! It's the best day of my life!

You win some, you lose some, it's the art of the game.

If you want to win, win by playing fair and square, not by dirty rough tactics!

Handball Game Day 1

Today is a lucky day for me and Y.C. We always wanted to play both handball and netball before this. We're already in the netball team but we can't get into the handball team cause it is full already. Then, we wanted to join the Saturn Handball Team, but it's a no go. Just now, we were just sitting at the canteen area where Jupiter Handball Team were gathering. Y.C's friend, Kelly was also in the team. So is Cordelia, my primary school classmate. Their team was short of players on the girls team. The teacher-in-charge just randomly asked us whether we could play for their team or not. Y.C said yes first. Then I thought it would be fun playing in one team with my old classmate who is SO FUNNY! So I told the teacher that I would like to volunteer to play too. I'm also playing cause I wanted the free t-shirt! Haha. XD

Then, we started practicing before the game start at 2.30PM. By the way, me and Y.C never played it before but we sorta knew most of the rules from friends. So we both were just playing around. They also never had a proper practice before. Tskk tskk. Later, we were joined with a handball school team player. She's AWESOME! She got most of the goals when we played against Saturn B and Venus A. We won 10-0 against Saturn B and 4-2 against Venus A. I helped to score couple of goals too. I think the biggest threat is the Mercury Team. They're good. Especially a girl with super short hair that looks like Zhou Lun Fa. <— [ Y.C said it. ] Haha. She's kinda play it really rough. She's BRUTAL! I think she should join the boys team. Wahaha. XD

Anyway, I hurt myself during the practice before play. I had to stand the excruciating pain. I'm glad I made it through today's game through the pain. Tomorrow, we're gonna play the semi-final! Yuuhooo!!!

Just another day...

Just back from Servay buying junk food supply for me for the next 4 days. I'm really gonna be home alone! >< My bro is staying with my uncle. Well, I said I can take care of myself. Never said that I can take care of my sick big bro. Haha. XD I bought lots of junkies!! Gonna fill myself up with lots of sugar so that I can have a truck load of energy to practice netball and playing netball. Hope it will boost my energy, just like old times when I play basketball for Mei Gong Girls Team. Good times. Sweet memories. :)

Finally,

Go, go! Go! Venus!

Go Yellow!

Miri City Go Green Day || Shopping

Wake up at 5.30 am to go to stadium for the Go Green Day. We danced aerobic. The weather is just nice. :) Love the weather this morning. After dancing, we went to buy stuffs using the coupons they gave us. Later, me n Y.C walked to Parkson. It was around 8 am. So, the entrance was not opened yet. We went to KFC and we were the first customer of the day! Yay! LOL! (>.<) We hang out there until the entrance opened. I bought lots of stuffs today. A whole new sport shoe, black and silver blingy shoelaces, a shirt that look like a jacket and some other stuffs. Whoa! My money is gone like flowing water! Haiz. But I'm happy I bought those stuffs. =P Especially ONE thing in particular.

(●*∩_∩*●) Muackssz ❤❤❤