A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.

Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.
And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you.

Today was kinda boring. Prefects are all gone to Gua Long for Prefect Camp. So Lian Ling is not at class. >_< Frankly, Qin was not at school for the past few days. No wonder I don't see her at school or her coming to class to find me. Lucky her. She can sleep all she wants in the morning. Not like me who needs to get up at 5.30AM every weekdays. Aishh. Today, I-AM-BORED-AS-HELL. = =" Good thing is, we basically don't study today. Some teachers are absent. And, we've got PJK today and teacher allows us to play badminton at the school hall. \(^^)/ I've haven't play badminton - even exercise - for quite a long time. That explains my laziness to even move a muscle. Lol. Yeah, I'm one lazy girl. >///< 

Next week, I'm really gonna D-I-E. Going to have History Topical Test for Form 4 Chapter 1 to 10. TEN chapters and I haven't started yet! It's on next Friday. Before that, I'm going to have Biology Topical Test for Form 4 Chapter 7 till 9. Also, I haven't touch biology reference book yet and it's on Wednesday. God, help me get through all of this. You know I can't handle these stuff on my own. :(

I'm still choosing what career I wanna get into and what course I'm gonna take in college or pre-u. Yeah. I know. It's kinda late and I'm still a blur. Ughh. I'm not good at physics, chemistry and additional maths. Biology is okay, for now. I think I'm more to the art side than the science side? Ahh! Imma make myself go nuts if it's like this. Let's see, when I was young, I used to want to grow up to be a dentist, a chef, a hair-dresser(LOL), a policewoman(DOUBLE LOL), an engineer, a pediatrician and a lot more crazy ambitions. Everyone seems to have an ambition in their mind already. Just a snap, and they know what they want. Why can't I be like that too? Sigh. T^T

Hmm.. Today during Chemistry period, the teacher got angry cause the class was too annoyingly noisy. Well, can't help it. It's 100% true but some of the students weren't that noisy. Lian Ling and I thought she was nearly crying. After she gave us homework, she stormed out of the class. We guessed she's going back to the office and God knows what will happen tomorrow. :\

After today's school ended, I was supposed to follow Qin's car back home. But then her car broke down and had to wait till 2.30pm for her mum to pick us up. After that, back to Qin's house cause need to check and fix the car. While waiting, Qin and I went to ride bicycle - and a big one at that! I didn't ride on a bicycle for at least 5-6 years. But I pick up quick and soon I can ride with one hand handling and even standing while cycling! Nice.. And suddenly I wanted to have a bicycle to ride. Haha. XD Also, first time eat curry noodles at her house. Sooo kick!! My mouth was near to spitting fire!! LOL.

At home, I was expecting mum to come back here from Kuching today. But then I received a call from mum. She says all fights from Kuching will be canceled for today cause there's an AirAsia flight 'terkandas' at the landasan.. So she only can come home tomorrow evening. >w< Aishh.. Too many shit happens this last few days.. I'm going mad!! @_@ So now I'm home alone again.. *help me* Tomorrow morning uncle will pick me up at home go to school. Then, I will go back home at 1.15pm after Maths period and skip Sivik period. Because I have no transport after that time. Haiz.. Why is my life like this? >< I'll bet no one's life is like this..

PS: Too many homeworks today.

Help!!

Imma die!! x_x

Outbreak. Disaster. FML! =3=

傳說…轻度强迫症的孩子會這樣。♥
by 優質血統

01✿戴耳机的时候必须看清了左右才戴。
02✿喜欢咬吸管、纸杯、棒棒糖棍儿。
03✿看到喜欢的本子就会买下来收藏，但是却不舍得在本子上写字。
04✿定闹钟五分钟一次，但还是不肯起。
05✿怀疑门没有锁。

06✿喜欢挤包装电器的那种带泡泡的塑料纸。
07✿明明对方的电话打不通或关机，还是一次次重复拨号，挂断。
08✿吃彩虹糖，连续两次吃的不能是同一种颜色。
09✿自己的博客模板看不顺眼就会不停地换，直到满意为止。
10✿突然想写东西，又没有本子，就会写在纸巾上。

11✿吃完一板板的药片，把周围的铝箔纸全部撕掉。
12✿反复检查记录下的东西或填写的表格。
13✿电脑桌面的图标一定要按照一定的排列顺序。
14✿离开一个地方之前要上上下下左左右右的看两遍以上。
15✿睡觉前一定要把拖鞋摆放整齐。

16✿调音量一定要调到自己顺眼的数字。
17✿删除文件后，一定要清空回收站。
18✿容易将他人写的一些文字对号入座，胡思乱想。
19✿发呆时一次次在桌面上右击刷新或刷新页面。
20✿看到别人没把黑板擦干净就觉得别扭。
21✿习惯用日期去记录

Out of 21, 除了15其它的都中.. 囧  难怪之前觉得我自己有点不正常.. :X
我可能真的有轻度强迫症唉..

It's only the first week and I'm already busy with homework and stuffs. I never expect Form 5 life to be this fast-paced and stressful. I'm not good at handling stress or tensions. Once, it got to me and I make the stupid decision to quit a club that was an experience of a lifetime. I really regretted that decision badly. I think now I'm much better at controlling them than a few years ago. My emotions were a wreak. Now, at least I learned how to motivate myself a bit instead of panicking over little stress. Huhh.. Just finished my part of the BM oral test script. It's L-O-N-G! :\ Then, need to prepare the English oral test script which I have no idea what the title is. Teacher says it should be something you're interested in. Hmm.. Interested in huh? I like watching anime, playing games, drawing, reading novels, chatting and bla, bla, blah.. Well, that's not the correct answer for the question.. Btw, it's supposed to be an interview dialogue.. So WHO am I gonna interview? -period- o_O" *smash head on keyboard* Ouch! :\

PS: Don't Procrastinate!

Do what you gotta do!

Second day of school.. (Omo! Why the day pass so slow? ><) Hmm.. Quite bored cause 阳光美女 not at class to company me chat.. So I'm practically silent most of the time.. She won't be back in class until next week.. Aishh.. Right now I'm rushing my english narrative writing essay.. What? Already so late! Still haven't finished writing.. >w< Ciao for now.. 

PS: Learned today that:

"An idle mind is the devil's workshop."

Not bad, for motivating people to keep the brain working. lol XD

Today Sivik teacher asked us what's our ambition. Looks like I'm not the only one who still haven't have one yet. Honestly I really have no clue about what I wanna be. My biology, chemistry, physics and additional maths subject sucks. So, I can't see myself being a doctor or a dentist as I've dreamed of becoming when I'm just a young lass who doesn't know about how hard it is to achieve dreams. T^T I've even thought of changing to art side instead of science side but my mum thought it'll be a waste. Aishh.. Eotteohkehae hanayo? It's so hard to choose. Dear God, help me and show the path for me, just the right one to take. And possibly, a.s.a.p.. cause if not, it'll be too late. -prayshard- Hmm.. Gotta go. Can't sleep too late cause I'm down with flu, and a terrible one at that. >_<

PS: It's the first day of school

and I'm already tired.

Gotta make a change yeah?

OMO!! School's gonna start already? TT^TT Aishh.. I haven't pick up a book to study this holiday.. Just back from celebrating the new year in Brunei.. Damn tired.. And I'm sick.. I've gotten a flu.. *curses* :X Anyway, just a quick update. Can't be online that much anymore.. :( Bye..

PS: THIS IS IT!

MY FINAL YEAR!
Gambate neh!